“Alice came to a fork in the road. ‘Which road do I take?’ she asked.
‘Where do you want to go?’ responded the Cheshire Cat.
‘I don’t know,’ Alice answered.
‘Then,’ said the Cat, ‘it doesn’t matter.” – Lewis Carroll
Spring break 2015 was a success. I got to visit two of my oldest friends in LA, visit Disneyland, Hollywood, Malibu, Venice Beach and Santa Monica. We hung out at SUR and PUMP, and got to see reality stars from Vanderpump Rules. If you know me, you know that this is a HUGE deal in my book. I’m a super fan girl when it comes to Lisa and Giggy Vanderpump, and I have no shame. #NakedPupsForTheWin. I was too starstruck to ask for a picture with Lisa and the Gigster, Pandora still hasn’t forgiven me.
The scenery was amazing. We could go to the beach one day, and hike the Hollywood Hills the following day, and go to Disneyland the next. There was so much too do and so many fur kids. Pandora would have loved it as much as I did.
Ever since I have been home, I have had an underlying sense of anxiety. This month and a half before graduation is such an awkward time. I think my anxiety comes from knowing that Grand Rapids isn’t the right place for me. At least, right now. If I knew I was going to stay here, in the town that I have lived in for most of my life, there would be nothing to be afraid of. I will find a job. That doesn’t scare me. It might take me a little bit, but I will find one. What scares me is not being fulfilled as a person. I don’t want to go through the motions on life, working a job I hate, all because I was too afraid to go after my dreams, and step out of my comfort zone.